失恋記の整理心情的第一天

I think I have not update myself on blog as I am so much into facebook
and just write everything on it.

And how come I'm back here?
Cos I want to write more and more and share how I feel!
From the title, you can tell what I wanna share.
Who can read this blog? It doesn't matter me anymore.

Things between us.
Known each other for about a year.
Confessed like him once, twice, thrice, and many
Asking for dating many many
Trying to conclusion for our relationship twice.

Finally the conclusion is out, we are friends!
Cool reply!!!

I thought I found who I want to be with for life,
But sad to say I am not what he want.

Chemistry is there, good communication,
great joker, happy moments, but
I'm not the one he is looking for...

Feel sad but I find no reason to cry.
He did not commited anything,
we didn't even start and how to say it's already end.
So I chose not to waste my tears.

曖昧is the only thing we did.
From today, we stop this unhealthy relationship.
Good for him, good for me.

At least I know
What to do,
Where to go,
Who to meet,
How to enjoy,
& When to play!!

Then what's my conclusion after this result?
I won't say I don't know cos I know!!
I used to say I don't know cos I won't want to face it.
And today why!!?

I'm already 25yrs, he is the one who made me realize it.
In my life span, how long can I still play with 曖昧?
Then what's my dream life to be???
What kind of environment do I wanna be in?
How far can I go?
How to figure out to my dream?
All these really crack my brain till I can't sleep well recently.

Yes, I have to plan for the future.
But no current then how to plan for the future?
Think far is the point, but how about think now to solve the problem?
Things getting even more messy than I thought.

Then why should I think that far??

Here come my final conclusion,
我和他的恋愛価値観一開始就不同。